Already Working! :)

the past week was a little hard on me. sharon started working as a teachers assistant, and in a lot of ways i felt like people were passing me by slowly in becoming what they came to college to be. the idea that even sharon is closer to her dream really in a way shook my pride.
throughout highschool, i had big big dreams. i've always wanted to do something big with my life, and i guess thats why i tried pre-med my freshman year. that didn't work out too well. after changing my major to business, i made a promise to myself and my parents. which was to succeed. to have a job and internships, and the whole business suit deal. i remember being a freshman, who just changed his major and already got ahead in the curriculum by attending workshops that only seniors attended. during these times everything seemed so perfect.
but to get to the point, year after year, after taking leadership roles in the church and serving, i guess i never really had time to keep on pursuing my career. now im more than convinced that God has called me to do some sort of ministry, what that is, its still unknown. nevertheless, something that really got to me is that most of my friends....maybe all of them are already or almost doing what they applied to school for. whether internships, or graduate schools, everybody seems like they are a step closer in becoming an "adult". as for me, i've been feeling as if im stuck in highschool church duties.
i didn't know this, but this fact that everbody was "moving on" really bothered me. even with me having decided on seminary, it still bothered me. My guess, its because i felt like i wasn't doing anything that was helping me become what i want to do in the future. and in many ways, didn't feel like i was advancing in what im pursuing. Yet, these past days, God once again revealed to me that im already Interning in His kingdom. as i've been looking at it, i've spent the most time with the temple kids, and it seems like im always free for them, more than haha my peers. and although it may be because my schedules are awesome, or i don't seem to sleep, but i credit it to the fact that God purposely lets me be around people, where i've had countless opportunities to minister and counsel. so im realizing, that im already trainning, and been trainning for the work in the future.
sometimes, i still feel like the worlds passing me by. yet, i find satisfaction to know that my internship is already in progress. my trainning is in effect, and my reward is great as well.

Dear God:
sometimes its so hard to see that what im doing is purposeful. sometimes i complain and even covet what my neighbors have. would you grant me faith to know that my role in your story is different, and of great importance as well. i pray for more faith God, to trust that what i have is good.
-Dae