Hear Our Cry

Psalm 38

¹ O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.² For your arrows have pierced me, and your hand has come down upon me ³ Because of your wrath there is no health in my body; my bones have no soundness because of my sin.⁴ My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear ⁵ My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly.⁶ I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning.⁷ My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body.⁸ I am feeble and utterly crushed;I groan in anguish of heart.⁹ All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.¹⁰ My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes.¹¹ My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds;my neighbors stay far away.¹² Those who seek my life set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they plot deception.¹³ I am like a deaf man, who cannot hear, like a mute, who cannot open his mouth;¹⁴ I have become like a man who does not hear,whose mouth can offer no reply.¹⁵ I wait for you, O LORD; you will answer, O Lord my God.¹⁶ For I said, "Do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me when my foot slips."¹⁷ For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.¹⁸ I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.¹⁹ Many are those who are my vigorous enemies; those who hate me without reason are numerous.²⁰ Those who repay my good with evil slander me when I pursue what is good.²¹ O LORD, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God 22 Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.

Dear God,

Its that feeling again. I thought I would never have to return to this state again but Lord, why is it here again? for 20 years Lord, i've prayed for this cup to be taken away from me. Although for many years, i could never understand the purpose of the pain, You've used it to bear fruit. However why is the pain coming back ? Isn't there any other way you can teach me what you want me to see? Lord i'm trying again, to go back to that peace of mind of rejoicing in my sufferings for I know you are trying to produce perseverance & character within me. But what if the toll is too big? What if my enemy is the one i love the most? God i dont know how to be strong in this weakness anymore. What if i dont know how much longer she can keep forgiving and withstanding the pain? What if we feel as if we are stuck, and the only way out is to go against your word? It's getting so hard to feel comforted and hopeful. What am i suppose to do God? I don't even know how to pray about it anymore. Be merciful to us Lord! I am so tired of the painful cycle. I am sick of having to watch my beloved suffer. I know you hear my cry Lord, i know you do. Lord help me to have faith. Heal our hearts. Help us to forgive. Renew us. Keep her healthy Lord. Thank you for listening to an undeserving child. Lord hear my cry, and help us to find peace in you.

I pray in your Son's name, AMEN.

- sharon