update

Just to write a little bit of whats been going on in my life, i've figured to spend these couple minutes before i begin watching my animes and fall asleep. i've started working as a market researchers. although the work itself is not a hard thing, the nature of it is pretty boring. we have weekly meeting where each person gives an update on their research progress etc, i literally cannot stay awake for those. even though there are days where i have to present my data, i literally fall asleep standing up, my eyes begin to zone out and my mind shuts down until the end where everyone decides to stop talking. its funny how when i decided to study marketing i always thought that if i could get that one research job, if i could just be a market researcher, everything would be perfect. my life would start having more meaning i guess, and add on to what God would have in store. slowly im beginning to realize however, that market research is not what i want to do for the rest of my life. interestingly enough, doing some research and asking couple ppl, this field is a properous one despite its boring nature. i've been told, that if i stayed in this field for at least 3 to 4 years, i could be living the "korean parent american dream" (working for an american company, getting paid fairly well, doing something others would not comprehend, get a family + kids and of course be their retirement plan). strangely enough, this all sounds "right" i guess it comes down to where we separate complacency from our true designed nature. well, thats my update folks. not very exciting, nor revolutionary. another day of work awaits tomorrow, and im just excited to head to six flags next week.

Dear God:
What was i made for? to be honest...im pretty good at this market research thing....im a fast learner and although enjoyment is rare, i could see myself excelling in it. but is something i can do well what i was made for? or is someothing i am capable of doing/ providing what should ultimately drive me? Dear God, i wish sometimes you spoke very loud and clear when it comes to what u want for your creations.
Love, Dae