Thursday, July 22, 2010

hollow

Dear God,
I feel hollow. so empty right now. Lifeless and weak. I don't feel like i belong here. I don't feel like anybody understands who i am, what i'm feeling.. i feel so alone and abandoned, even from myself. The people that I once thought i knew so well, they seem so distant and different, that i almost feel betrayed. My purpose in life seems unclear. I think deep inside I know the cause of this emptiness in my heart. Lord, make it clear to me what i'm doing wrong. I want to hate sin like you hate sin. I want to fear only you. Help me to empty my heart of it's emptiness and fill it with only what is filling.

All i need is you Lord.

Love, Sharon

2 comments:

EllenHwang said...

"Sing, O barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; becasue more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband," says the Lord.

"Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes. For you will spread out to the right and to the left; you descendants will dispossess nations and settle in their desolate cities.

Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood. For your Maker is your husband--
the Lord almighty is his name--
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
he is called the God of all the earth. The Lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit-- a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God.
"For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back. In a surge of anger I hed my face from you for a moment, but with EVERLASTING kindness I will have compassion on you," says the Lord your Redeemer." -Isaiah 54:1-8


Girl, I typed that jawn all out just for you <3
I was really touched by this passage during today's sermon at church. I don't want to define it for you but I hope it speaks to you and comforts you the way it did to me...maybe it will do more for you =) Hehe~ I hope I get to see you soon! Let me know when you want to play again. We can just stay in and pig out and talk about random things.

Also, I really want to show you the things I've been making! I think I want to start a charity thing =)

Love you babe!

Willis Zhang said...

hey sharon, cute layout haha.

hope things are better now (been a month since this post), but i can empathize since i suffer at work with very little recognition. but every time I start reasoning why i deserve more dignity, my sin becomes so clear when I remember Jesus.

i hope we can hold on to this ONE standard to make any sort of sense in this confusing world. keep writing about whats up.